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[dives0deep]

Most of you must've had xangas before right?
Share your old blogs! Lol. See how you've changed :) :)
Don't be lazy, go dig!


LOL this dates back to Monday, May 10, 2004


10 songs you love&can play over&over agens [[randomorder]]
-- Fabolous » Trade it all
-- Dream Street » Sugar Rush
-- Britney Spears » Everytime
-- 2Pac ft. Biggie » Runnin`
-- Sclub » Have You Ever
-- R.Kelly » Ignition [[remix]]
-- Sclub » Never Had A Dream Come True
-- Deestylistic » OMG can yu believe i forgot????!!!
-- P.Diddy » Missing You
-- Eminem » Hailie's Song
9 things that make you smile [[randomorder]]
-- My Computer
-- Dumb Boys
-- Teachers when yelling
-- Mr.Russo Getting Annoy'd by Us kiDs
-- My Ron Ng Calendar ..[[danksmaray=)]]
-- When my 10 month old brother laughs =]
-- When a joke is being told ..
-- People with no common sense *smiLes xD
-- Non-azn people tryna learn ch inese
8 things you wear daily
-- t-shirt
-- underwear
-- pants\shorts
-- scrunchiee
-- bracelet ..?
-- ahemsbraahems
-- don't know
-- don't know
7 things that annoy you
-- annoying people x]
-- people w\ no common sense
-- when a teacher leaves sum marks on the chalk board while erasing .. -- people who dinks i jes shopp'd from staples
-- jockerss
-- don't knows =b
-- don't know
6 thing you're looking foward too
-- 8th grd
-- highschool
-- college
-- becoming a 6 grd or an elementary teacher
-- qoinq to hk in summer? [[mehbn0tz=T]]
-- passinq skoo
5 things you're afraid of
-- BUGS
-- HEiGHTS
-- my mom [[sumtymes]]
-- not qettinq into stuy\bk tech\midwood
-- qettinq lower then a 91 for last marking pd.
4 people you wish to spent more time with
-- family
-- grandma
-- friends [[uhhuh..]]
-- i0noz..
3 movies you can watch over and over
-- The Parent Trap
-- Rush Hour 1 and 2
-- DOH SUNG [[chineseshowwithjowsingcheeinit]]
2 special moments
-- Graduating Fifth Grade
-- shrugsz
1 person you can live forever with
-- not my mom coz she's strict but i can deal w\ it, not myh dad coz he's annoying =b, pSsh definetly not myh sister coz she's a brat, not myh brother coz he's a boy and is 12 years younger then mEe xD, not myh other sister coz she doesn't speak canto or english but mando. [[ bet most of ya didn't kno i had that much sibling ehh?? ]] so im shtuck w\ myh grandma<3* lol, jk i ain't stuck w/ her..i PiCK her.. =)

myh grandma's the best so awla yous shut the frick up..heh i imagine that i use that word in skoo and den don't qet in trouble coz the original work was f*ck not frick..so i can say that frick is jesz a word that i made up!! ok kool lols ;X ima do that in drama class .. to Mr. Russo .. bet he qonn be like .. "amy, that's very unnecessary" *rolleyes* den is say..frick is a word i made up .. "start your work" is what he will say coz den he knos im right .. mwahahahhahaahaha ;X okey qonna qo nows ..

Hahah omgoodness..the way I typed and talked? eesh~ and the music I liked? LOL 9/10th of that right now would be korean pop/rap. haha. I can't even understand the last two paragraphs I wrote..looking foward to 8th grade?! 10 month old brother?! and i didn't get into any of the three hschools i wanted to go to LOL. and i still want to be a teacher.. oh my..lol =[

[gladiany]

lol @ yours


lemme see if I can find one

[froggiebro]

I will try to find and acceptable one too. I was super emo in middle school. :rolleyes: Geez.

[dives0deep]

Haha I was too. I didn't want to post it up. Maybe I will it is REALLY @_@ haha.

Saturday, December 11, 2004
somedays i sit .. staring out the window, watchin` this world pass me by, sumtimes i think, theas nothin' to live forr .. i almost break down and cry .. sometimes i think im crazy, im crazy oh so crazy .. why am i here am i just wasting my time?? sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders .. everyone`s leaning on me.. and sumtimes it feels like the world's almost over .. people make jokes .. cause they don't understand me, they just don't see my real sidee .. i ACt like shit don't phase me .. INSIDE it drives me crazy .. my insecurities could eat me alive .. i got a feart full of pain, head full of stress, handfull of anger, held in my chest and everything lefts a waste of time .. sometimes i remember the darkness of my past. bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have .. sumtimes i think of letting go and never looking bac, and never moving foward so there'd never be a past ..

It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

private

i wanna break down and cry . . i wish things were back like they were . .i wish i was still a freshie in dyker . . . i wish my dad wouldn't be such a faggot nowadays . . . i wish my grandma lives until 101 AND PLUS =) . . . it`ll be her birthday soon, near christmas .. god i love her <33 siigh. but you know what sucks? everything. and im not happy. and ima mean person.>;O a mean person with a attitude. and im not willing to change. i wanna change. but i cant. so that sucks. siigh. oh wells, whatevers.. private entries now .. lol coz i can't update.. oh lookie this, im gay.. im talking to myself .. -.-; .. oh wells whatevers, and i also wish YOU weren't reading this, coz as you can see, its PRIVATE. but whatevers .. peace.

12.13.04 7;08 pm.

i wanna cry agens =\ i think i cry myself to sleep every night .. i wish it was in the 7th grd .. where i'd get only 94's and above .. not evn 90's were allowed in MY brain .. and i wish it was like bac den .. wen i'd bring home a test and mom would be like "95?" =\ and she'd be so proud of me. but diew .. things aren't like that anymores .. im so dumb nowadays .. just can't seem to get this shit into ma' head .. -.-; siiiiiigh. get all 50's and 60's .. grr im so pissed at ma'self .. i wanna do better, but i can't. can't get my fucking brain to fucking function right. asdfhajsfklsjh seriously T_T i need a miracle .. now, mommy doesn't evn expect anything from me .. me-"mommy, sign test". mommy-"50?" .. that was what she sed after my two math tests. she don't expect anything from me anymores. im just a big stupid dumbass. a fucking "imbecile". wow. you have no idea how many people call me STUPID. sumtymes, they don't mean it .. but they erno how much it hurts my feelings. i might seem whatever to them .. but im actually very ... delicate. lol. i cry over the stupidest things. wen sumone calls me stupid, i take it offensively evn wen dey say "no offense" cause im like that. so thas too bad for me. and den wen mommy asks me sumthing, and i say i don't know .. then i DON'T FUCKING KNOW. jeeeze, and den she gotta start bitchin' at me, and den starts talking about how i don't know anything .. that just gets me sad agens. i might seem mad-crazy.. but im not. im just really really really sad.. so much for stuyvesant me and my clueless slash dumbass brain.
LOL I want to gauge my eyes out even more so than when I saw the porn spammers.
and my dad isn't a faggot :( he's just annoying along with my mom haha

Saturday, January 08, 2005

mom soooooooooooo secretly hates me. so much hatred, so much animosity ='\. looks at me like shes disgusted. like ima shameful daughter. one look can cause so much malevolence to me. my feelings are being mutilated. i wish they werent so easily hurt, so sensitive. i kno i dun show it, but it is. im gonna go die now xanga. yur the only one that understands me besides my yellow & red notebook. byee.

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love hurts so we all cry tears dropping from my eyes. the pain i can't explain, all i know is love is pain. =\

ain't gots to be boy love -_- cud be family lov namean` .. but maybe it is haha xD ... =\ nahs not really .. or maybe .. or not ..

[froggiebro]

Haha I was too. I didn't want to post it up. Maybe I will it is REALLY @_@ haha.

Haha I don't want to post these either. Good lord and I found my emo poetry too. This is painful.

[gladiany]

wow I found something really crazy... man.. I don't remember what happened those days... but I did say some ugly things.. wow I'm surprised at these words... I can't believe I ever fought this way with my 2 "sisters"


I think I was possessed by the devil LOL! I'm never like this! I can't believe it! I'm so sorry I ever said these hurtful words... I don't even know if they read them..

QUOTE: In 2004

Yall don't know shit about me. Especially you -----. I hate you. You claim to know me. AND you think you psychic. HAHA. You THINK you know what goes on my mind. You were the one who fucking started this. You can ask my brother... I've been very calm without you bitches and then you gonna write some shit in yo diary about how "I'm lying and being unreal" haha. Bitch I'll say it outloud. I'm better than you! I'm always right. I'm in your head all the time. I'll be in your head all the time. Like a nightmare...I'm going to make your life a living hell. I'm right, you're wrong. You fucking bitches are too dumb to realize what's going on and whose fault it is. But you'll find out sooner or later the type of rats you are. Poison-filled rats! :D I love this so much. I aint going to keep playing your childish games. I'm older than yall and I been through more shit. I been honest through the years. Tell me who was there for both of you bitches through thick and thin?(Not to mention the fact that you hated each other!) but to answer my question, I was there for you bitches. I regret ever meeting yall. It was THE biggest mistake EVER and you didn't deserve my friendship. You ungrateful bitches didn't appreciate it! Rot in hell.

[froggiebro]

Dang yo. XD I love how angsty we are in early teen years.

[dives0deep]

wow I found something really crazy... man.. I don't remember what happened those days... but I did say some ugly things.. wow I'm surprised at these words... I can't believe I ever fought this way with my 2 "sisters"


I think I was possessed by the devil LOL! I'm never like this! I can't believe it! I'm so sorry I ever said these hurtful words... I don't even know if they read them..


Hahah wow you write so nice~!! :D
And Talen, share the poetry! LOL. I got some profanity filled blogs but I'll save those haha.

[gladiany]

I was very emo too lol

I have many depressing blogs

[that girl]

Sunday, September 11, 2005
One thing I can't stand is drama. Dude, we're SENIORS. Just a few more months & we're out of high school, aka "hell" for a lot of you guys. The people whom you have beef with or whatever - there's a big chance you'll never see him/her again after you graduate. What's the point on hatin' for no reason? Feelin' all pissed off & whatnot is just temporary stuff. I leared in Bible Study today that we should not regret, because the choices we've made in the past equals to who we are today. So, therefore - in order for us to be good people in the future, we must start with makin' good decisions now. Don't hold grudges against each other, guys. C'mon - we're leaving school soon: for us seniors, it's what - like 8 months? Life's short - hold no grudges against people. Just let it go & go on with your life.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I wish everyone on earth can ALL set aside their differences & hatred. We only live ONCE. :] I also wish for forgiveness from you guys, if I've ever sinned against you. Sometimes, I sin without even knowing that I do. =/ Sorry. -0-;

`LOVE GOD, LOVE ONE ANOTHER.`

Thursday, January 06, 2005
words of advice to YOU, from yours truly.

you guys only have one life to live. just one. and then, guess what? we DIE. quit complaining. quit bickering. quit wishing to be someone you are not. just QUiT it. and live it up.

you wish you were rich and had many countless things? dream on. there are millions of people out there, wishing to be YOU. wishing to have running water, FOOD, shelter, clothes, etc. all we care about is wishing that our clothes are from a specific brand or whatever.

does it all matter? -no- a lot of teachers have this poster in their classrooms. it says something like "30 years from now, it doesn't matter what clothes you wore or the shoes you had... what matters is what you learned and how you used it" [or..er.. something similar to that. ] WOORRDD. UPPP.

the golden rule. it seems to me a lot of you all forgot about that. treat others as you want to be treated from them. do unto others and you'd want them to do unto you. regrets = pointless. live your life like there's no tomorrow. take chances.

quit b*tching & just live, mang.

Monday, May 22, 2006
I've been reading & watching the news a lot more than usual lately. There are so many situations about people who've died. Through war, illness, shooting, suicide, terrorist attack, natural disaster, car accidents. They all lived once upon a time. They were all parents, children, grandchildren, grandparents, friends, wifes, husbands to others. They've all had their good times & their bad times. We all go through the same things. It's not just you that is suffering & hurting.

Reading the news about how so-and-so died, I always think to myself: "Dang. I wonder what their accomplishments were. I wonder if they achieved them. I wonder how they lived. I wonder if they had things they would have wanted to say before they left."

It could've been me or you.

So you see,
Life's short. It's precious.
It can end just in a simple ::snap::
"Once you die, you die.
There are no second chances."
Say what you want to say.
Do what you want to do.
Just don't harm yourself & others.
Don't hold grudges.
Forgive & forget,
no matter how hard these things can be.
Stop the hate. And love.

Ah, the good old Xanga days =P What a long post! oh well. :]

[mystix-jj]

I don't use xanga just my normal MSN blog. Here is an entry I typed up on 14th November, 2008 at 1:38pm however it was written by me at a different date.

Titled: No Sound

This was written by me on Friday 26th August 2005 (long time ago eh?)
I can’t stand seeing people in distress, I walk over to see and ask if you’re okay? I wait for you to say yes or no, but you don’t answer. Something is wrong, and I know it is, because you’re never like this. It’s so quiet; it feels like someone has just died. You look so sad, standing stock still, staring into space like you’re no there. Your physical presence seems like a shadow. I am scared, what is wrong with you? What happened to your happy smile? You open your mount as if to speak but no words come out, and you shut it again. My face drains of colour, pale out of fear for you. I watch you sitting there lost somewhere. A tear slides down your cheek, then another and another. Soon you’re crying but you don’t make any noise, these silent tears. I sit next to you and hold you. I whisper and tell you, it’s alright, I’m here for you. When I reach to hold you, you flinch at my touch, but still toy don’t utter a sound. I look at you but you look normal, only your sad looking face is different, but I know that there’s something else: something else that I can’t really put my finger on. I pass you a tissue to wipe away your tears, that’s the least I can do while you cry. A shoulder to cry on you probably don’t need as you flinched at my touch. You take it but you start to walk away. “Where are you going?” I shout after you. You don’t seem to hear me and keep on walking. You pick up a pen and begin to write something on the tissue. You then walk over and hand it back to me. I read it. It says, “I can’t talk.” I don’t’ say anything and you walk away, tears still streaming down your face. When you are gone I begin to cry as well. I cry for you. I am sorry that this has happened, but what can I do, what has caused you to be like this? I will try to find out, no matter what. Now I realise how lucky I am, unlike you… http://byfiles.storage.live.com/y1pz_Aq-bI22bRYUYmWHa24TNa8JwFlRMNf21PoKWIQ235PDg4jeDPrTIo GbIlg25XV108UoubLE7jfSPeGyFuq1w (http://byfiles.storage.live.com/y1pz_Aq-bI22bRYUYmWHa24TNa8JwFlRMNf21PoKWIQ235PDg4jeDPrTIo GbIlg25XV108UoubLE7jfSPeGyFuq1w)
©Jinna

[MaryB]

I dont use xanga, i dont even know bout it, but i have numb journals created by the linkin park. lol, sounds funny reading it back....i haven't been there for long longgggg time..hahhh...but yeah i found it !

LOL, this was like 6 years?

MONDAY - 11.03.03
4:05 AM PST: WOW BIO IS OVER!

I am totally mixed up with happy and worried today. Happy cause my Bio paper is totally over today and worried 'bout the results! I hope it will be okay though! I have just registered the RealOne player ... and coolness! it's really great! ..... I still have my Add Math and Math papers going on this Wednesday and Thursday. I can't wait for it to be over!

**omg, i was so super excited about real player?*) hahahah

FRIDAY - 11.07.03
9:21 AM PST: PARODY

It's 1.07 am in the morning and I am still wide awake. My friend wrote a parody bout sonnet 18 back in 2002 and I thought that I wanna write it down on my NJ.

The Devil

Shall I compare you 'drugs' to the devil?
You are more deadly and more destructive
Your evil do ruin humans' life and happiness
And you make those addicts too pathetic looking
Sometimes too high you make the addicts feel
And often families are devastated coz' of you
And every now and then you still exist
By chance, or whatever you should be destroyed
But people can't resist the temptation of you
Nor shall you terminate our body and soul
Nor shall we surrender ourselves to the fire and hell you created
When will people ever realize your horrendous influences
So long as we steer clear of you
So long our life will be without pain and miseries

created by pearl
It was during our English Week and we have to summit our parody bout drugs!

And here's mine ... quite funny though!

Shall I compare you to Hercules?
You are more weaker and flaccid
And often you thought you were the hero
By chance you never did so
Sometimes too hot the eyes of mine seeing you smack down
And every punch to punch fall right down to your face
Nor shall you haunting my life
Nor shall you I remember
So long you will be forgotten

THURSDAY - 11.20.03
1:59 AM PST: YIPPEE ... MY EXAM IS TOTALLY OVER!

What can I say? Waaaaaaa .. I'm so excited today! It has been like two years i'm waiting for this exam and now wow! it's over ! Man! feel so good! :) Everybody was like busy taking photographs with their friends .... but eventually i had to go home earlier! can't believe i've just finished my high school! :) and now no more going to school and no more wearing uniforms!

My sis, Liy came back from Kuching again .. well actually she has been away like a week before and now here she is again coming home for Raya holidays.

I have a new pet at home! Two turtles .. both of them are still same .. so cute .. and their tank always gets dirty all the time. So, it's up to my sis, my mom and I to clean that tank! Small tank!

I think I'm going to KL on December to visit my friend. Ahhh! So excited .....

*hhaaha*

[Tom]

I was going to start a blog a month back which was based on my philosophy's, but in comedic terms so that my friends and other people would get more a kick out of it. I scrapped the idea when I realised that I wasn't funny. Here's a post I wrote but never posted. Enjoy:

The Excitement of False Ideas

It's like one of those wierd kids at the bus stop. You're just sitting there, your music in, minding your own business when all of a sudden they creep up on you, lick your ear (or something) and forever burn their image into your mind. Sometimes it's scares you, sometimes it turns you on (rarely) but almost always it becomes a memory. Wait...this hasn't got anything to do with memories. Well, it has. It's about making memories, but that analogy really made absolutely no sense.

The Excitement of False Ideas. An example would be myself telling another friend 'We should so go have a huge party, with loads of girls and vodka', yet knowing all too well that it could never happen. I might attempt to make it happen, but inevitably, I would fail. It's the course of nature. Oh, and I have parents.

So why, even when I know it holds no truth, do I say it? Because just imagine if it did happen. It would be great. So much more interesting than my usual weekends (which, admittedly, isn't much of a challenge). It's like those films you see, when the protagonist has himself/herself stuck in a fucked up situation with ten foot robots and butch dominatrix's. In reality, you'd never expect them to get out of it, but they always do! Everytime. I mean come on, that guy should have died in Transformers 2! What the hell was that all about?

Ah crap, totally veered away from the my actual point again.

I'll leave you with this in mind: Is it wrong to come up with these ideas that'll never be? And if not, why the hell does nobody want to come to my party?

Thanks for reading, you've got balls.

Tom.